Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Updates for the sake of updating
Many things have transpired between end-of-arts-camp to now, and many things done.
I worked, I filmed, I acted, I edited, I scrutinised, I attended precamp, I further scrutinised, I bought, I carried, I etc.
I don't know if people can see it, but the more critical I was, it only showed the more I cared.
I sincerely believed I did my best.
Facing such diversed personalities, leading such a green team, I've really went way beyond what was my job scope, and cared a lot more for the people who currently occupy the position I once held.
I have to curb my hot-temper, breathe in deep, and talk nicely while driving the serious point across. I have to carefully stroke egos even though I'm egoistic myself. I have to push people who do not have enough initiative without spoiling the 'feel good' factor between us. When people lost steam, or when people gave up talking to one another, I have to be the one doing all the background linkages.
And yet, all some people think is about how much sacrifices they have made, or how much they themselves have suffered, or about how much credit they want to claim, or how much they want to slack, leaving all the work to other people.
Seriously sometimes I don't care already. People can choose to believe the half-truths presented to them, and just listen to one-sided accounts, it's their choice.
But at the same time, I'm really touched by the people who trusted me throughout, really. These people really know me, and know that I do things because I
had to, rather than because I
want to. You know who you are, and I really, really appreciate it.
These are the people you can really call 'friends'.
Sometimes, a simple gesture is all it takes to leave a print on your heart for the rest of your life.
To the 'some people': the time will still come, the things will still have to be done. Whether you want to view it negatively, or view it as a positive experience, it's your choice.
However, always remember: Choices have consequences.
If you want a positive conquence, jolly well make that positive choice, and endure through the labour pains in the process.
I'll repeat what I once typed:
"Even if you think you deserve it, it doesn't mean they will give it to you."
"You have to go and get it."
It doesn't matter how much effort you put in. All it matters is what people see, the results.
So, you either bloody execute it damn well, or throw your efforts all down the dustbin.
Again, the choice is yours.
Immortality is ahead. Go and get it guys.
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