Sunday, July 25, 2010
MJ's song describes the weekend
Like a comet
Blazing 'cross the evening sky
Gone too soon
Like a rainbow
Fading in the twinkling of an eye
Gone too soon
Shiny and sparkly
And splendidly bright
Here one day
Gone one night
Like the loss of sunlight
On a cloudy afternoon
Gone too soon
Like a castle
Built upon a sandy beach
Gone too soon
Like a perfect flower
That is just beyond your reach
Gone too soon
Born to amuse, to inspire, to delight
Here one day
Gone one night
Like a sunset
Dying with the rising of the moon
Gone too soon
Gone too soon
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11:33 pm
People who worked more than 10 years asking me, the fresh grad, if I drive, and if I'm gonna buy a car soon. HELLO?
Younger generation really yearn too much for enjoyment and can't take hardship.
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12:07 am
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Week 3
Work has picked up gradually, with things to be done, and decisions to be made.
Busier, and more things to do.
Also started to see the undercurrents beneath the smiles.
Well, when you have lots of things to do, which you're not familiar with, people tend to get emo, and perhaps try to siam seemingly unimportant things.
And perhaps when you do the same something for too long, it gets sickening and people do it with less and less effort.
Is it unavoidable or is it just 'adult'? I think perhaps it's just people reaching their saturating points bah.
Well, I'll still try my best to treat everyone with respect, as a friend, as a senior, and see how things go.
I try to go to work with a smile everyday, despite the restrictive hours, lack of nua time, and the need to wear long sleeves long pants everyday.
Yes I'm pyschoing myself that I'm doing things for the greater good. And my job is fun. Hence uploading pictures of my travels on facebook, to let myself feel good.
Drafted letter for CEO to a mini-star, not too hard, simple but scary at the same time. You really wonder if he will really read it.
Greatest takeaway this week:
大家只是混口饭吃罢了，没必要咄咄逼人。
同是天涯沦落人，互相尊重，互相谅解，那不是最好不过吗？
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12:58 am
Monday, July 19, 2010
Duh
If everyone has no responsibility to shoulder, who doesn't want to chase their interests?
If I have millions in my account to support my family, of course I would go help poor people around the world, or devote time in starting some recycling company, or fight for rights of the underclassed.
Talking as if going merely against a society's expectation is so darn hard.
Try going against a hungry stomach. If you do that without regret, that's REAL passion.
Doing something just because you wanna avoid another undesirable place isn't passion.
It's laziness dressed under the great, idealistic and cool word called 'passion'.
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10:44 pm
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Let me call this week 2
Funny how work is about simply pleasing your bosses. When they smile, you smile.
(Note to myself: Should I get to lead next time, I shall emphasise on sense of satisfaction when you help people)
I've got great colleagues, really! They are really helpful to me, and make me feel welcomed.
Division by age - a bit bopian la huh, but it's not too bad la.
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12:06 am
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Emo
Everytime after emo moment regarding school, i'm at a loss of words.
Commencement - the end was already there 2 months ago, this was just to put an official stamp to it. There was no particular day, no particular turning point. But I'll know the past will be history, safely kept in my memories. The past 4 years (especially the first 2) were really spectacular. Well, as it is with all things, the more you've enjoyed it, the more emotional you get losing it. Well, it's better to have loved and lost, than to not have loved at all.
Work really reduces you to less of a human being, you have less energy to smell the roses, enjoy the scenes, recollect your memories.
I shall do this again as and when I like, at a later date.
P.S. Perhaps what these ceremonies are for. To consolidate, to put a full stop, to tell ourselves to move on. I had the same feeling after a funeral, even though the company was different. The same feeling of nostalgia, the same feeling of no turning back. That's really sad in itself.
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9:46 pm
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Pay Day
First payday came!
Logging on to my ibanking, the first feeling was happiness. 7 working days and pay come already! The amount was quite substantial too, so I was happy.
But after a few stares, suddenly the amount became just a number.
"The number does not have any meaning unless you do something with it" - That was the thought that appeared in my mind right after.
There I went, doing the very adult things. Called up OCBC to ask about the repayment of the tuition fee loan. Pondered about what amount/how to give dad. Drawn out some money to pass to Da Gu to contribute to family expenses.
Suddenly that number dwindled/seems that it will dwindle in a few days, and I started to lament how slow that 'number' was growing again.
Age of instant gratification. Age of impatience.
Patience, young one.
I'm very good at calculating, it's almost first nature to me. Whenever I see numbers I just want to punch in that calculator and start calculating, I'm well trained. But after all that calculation of numbers, I have to learn to put value into those numbers. And it isn't easy, I guess.
Too high an utility to reach, too limiting the budget constraint.
That's why it's always:
max U s.t. expenditure<$x.
Right now is uni spending with adult stress.
I have to be patient, after x years, I can't revert back to uni stress, but hopefully I can upgrade to adult spending.
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9:39 am
Monday, July 05, 2010
Happy?
You think I very happy meh?
It's just I accepted reality is as such, and compared to the farmers/construction workers/factory workers/coffeeshop uncles aunties/sales person/prostitutes, we are really very lucky already.
And I just worked my mind around this reality, rather than hoping reality will change.
You were able to enjoy what you enjoyed for the earlier parts of your life because there is someone else out there slogging so hard like a dog everyday. Waking up before the sunrise, returning home near the sunset. Their generation is superb, they do so mechanically, just with that quiet resilience in their eyes, never complaining, never demanding appreciation from us.
Now it's our turn to pay back what we've owed. When people went through shit for your life in heaven, instead of lamenting that you need to drop from heaven, have the balls to go through the same shit to return them the favour.
And I repeat, what we are going through is far less shitty and way better paid already.
Nobody is happy, and I'm still not sure why God gave me this life. But since we're already here, we either commit suicide and f off from this world, be selfish and leave those who slogged for us to continue slogging like dogs, or we continue to live, and do so happily. Learn to put your life in the wider context, instead of the narrow-minded, impossible realm of Utopia.
There is no Utopia, wake up.
Stop lamenting the fall from heaven. Some people don't even have the chance to experience heaven, count yourself lucky already. What more do you want? Ok if you really want that perfect world, go and devote yourself in some religion, and probably you'll really go to heaven in the afterlife.
60 yrs of hardwork for an infinite lifetime of perfect world, worth it right?
Oh no, hardwork sucks.. yeah, and the story continues...
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11:46 pm
Sunday, July 04, 2010
A quick word on the first week of work
Well to be honest I'm not sure how much can I share on a blog when working with the garment, with us handling sensitive information etc.
Just wanna say that the first 2 days of work have been great! The culture here is super friendly, everyone works with a smile. And great having some colleagues with crazy laughters - I like! This kind of 'uncle auntie heartland' culture is exactly how I grow up to be, so it fits me to a T.
Of course, the bad part being not used to the early waking ups, missing world cup matches, having to wrap ur arms and legs in longs. And of course READINGS! Have not done them since submitting my thesis on 6th April.
I'm grateful that I've always met great working colleagues in my life. Rather bochup supervisors and fun temps in Leno.vo, funny people at AK, relaxed sup in MT.I, and smiley peeps at Hedgedeebee.
Sidenote: Kena arrowed to talk to the whole department by the d.irector in the first few hours of work! But happy that some said I did well. Responsible for nth now, so I'm taking great interest in meetings and picking up how people work here - it has been an eye opener and I'm very grateful for that.
Of course expectations are greater on me, but well, I will not try to stress myself. I have always been my worst critic anyway so I will not create this imaginary expectation on myself. Just do my work nicely, and everything else will follow.
For details on my job people can always ask junyue. He's the number one loudspeaker, haha.
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