Thursday, March 30, 2006
"i composed a new song."
"erm a happy one or.... SAD one?"
"sad song."
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another friend:
'hmmm..ya...i tried writin happy songs
but like somehow not very complete
but sad songs can finish very fast
cos e sadness is like overflowin..cant stop..
so very fast write finish.."
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how true.
sadness lingers.
happiness die fast.
even after the happiness, reality looms.
--> sadness
and it lingers.
why feeling blue?
failed interview? fatigue? contrast?
mixture.
得失心不要那么重吧.
能不能告诉孤单疲惫的我
你永远为我守候?
it lingers.
lowtide blogged @
8:50 pm
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
the contrast couldn't be more stark.
day.
felt giddy.
wore the evil 'coporate' attire.
hated myself in that attire.
smelled the evil 'coporate' air.
got into a evil 'coporate' dog-eat-dog competition.
I hate the silence.
I hate the sound of air-con disturbing the silence.
I hate the glaring lights.
I hate being scrutinised under the glaring lights.
No choice. the $$ is here, my future is here.
experience it now or suffer next time.
felt that i've grown up.
not added wisdom.
forced by cicumstances.
c0ld, efficient, judgmental world.
like-minded youngsters brought a breath of fresh air.
injected some childishness to combat that evil coporate air.
adapt to the evil world, little boy.
night.
the simple pleasures of life.
meeting up, catching up, talking.
the beauty of the city.
beautiful architecture.
the serenity.
familiar places.
irony.
a 'coporate' setting built by a 'coporate' world for the 'coporate' world.
interior - scenes of the 'coporate' world.
summation of exteriors - a skyline of beauty.
music.
felt my heart re-lived for that moment.
the power of music.
brought peace.
admiration and jealousy combined.
you.
opened my eyes to music I would never have thought of.
one to treasure.
a million thanks.
happiness dies fast.
bad news from 'coporate' world came.
我常会想望能回到那年我一十二
只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁
I'm dead again.
爱是个什么东西?
我还在问我自己
sian.
lowtide blogged @
11:13 pm
Sunday, March 26, 2006
爱是个什么东西?走遍这城市
找个没你的角落
混乱的心要一点冷静
分手说不定
是现在最好的解脱
该对爱喊个暂停
Some things written by different people has brought some reflection into my mind.
1:
" like is like. love is love ...... ANYBODY has the chance to develop to love ...... when u're very stubborn on one person even when he's not meant for u, u should open ur eyes n open ur heart, mayb somewhere else, something good is happening :)"
(unrelated to 1) 2:
"Perhaps if time could wash away all emotions, maybe you never really understood what is it like to truly love some one. The concept that mere time can eradicate your pinings somehow cheapens the sanctity and magnminity of love? For those who share my sentiments, perhaps what time has done for us is build a paper dam. Dimensions? Time and space ...... Perhaps life would be less fulfilling but less painful, to be able to change partners like underwear. But alas, ye Ol' curse called Love befalls thee!)"
怎么try
心里还是搞不懂
想去爱
但又怕被爱伤害
不明白
怎么样才会满足
don't know why
想走又离你不开
In an ideal world,
A loves B. B loves A. Their feelings are clear. Only A and Only B. A and B make their feelings completely known to one another, and they get together. There are no external factors affecting their decision. There are no clashes of wealth, parents, religion, hobbies, time, distance etc. They are completely compitable. Even not so initially, they can iron out all differences. A will never ever entertain thoughts that other people might be better than B. Likewise for B. They will never break up. A will only like B and only B for the rest of his life. Likewise for B.
AND.... *drumrolls*............
They live happily ever after.
But is it ever possible?
爱是个什么东西?
它到底公不公平?
爱有什么了不起?
有没有都是可以
HELL NO!!
It's rather impossible to eradicate the dilemmas and uncertainties in love.
Sentimental Memories (old) vs Current possiblities (New)
Feelings (whether u like the person) vs Practicalities (wealth, religion, parents, distance etc)
Very Close Friends v Lovers
希望这一切
只是迷茫过度期
爱和情欲交战在心底
锁定一颗心
没有想象中那么容易
安定后就不安定
Back to the paragraphs.
1 is a practical one. Open your heart, open your mind. See, look and listen to the people around you. Someone might be waiting all along!
2 is a sentimetal one. If I fall in and out of love so easily, then what is love?
Well, both are correct I guess.
怎么try
有时心会被摇动
想去爱
但是又不敢去爱
我明白
你的沉默你的痛
i know why
但不知道要怎么去改
It led to me thinking.
爱是个什么东西?
Do you like a person first, then think of the practical stuff, or do you first set up a 'practicalilties/possibilties filter', then 'decide' whether you like the person?
The idealistic and 'always appear in love stories' advice would be, "Just follow your heart. The other pieces will fall into place."
Is it really so simple?
If it's the former, should you still perservere even if it's a lost cause? Yes, you can called that true, steadfast, undying love, but is it practical at all? Wouldn't that just create more misery for both parties?
If it's the latter, it's darn well practical and logical, but wouldn't it degrade the idealistic and noble notion of love?
爱是个什么东西?
它是太理想主义
爱有什么了不起?
我充满许多怀疑
This is the kind of dilemma that exists.
(Pls do not take offence if you're in a similiar case)
I've seen people liking one particular person for 3 yrs, 6yrs, or even 8 yrs, despite knowing it's rather impossible for them to get together, and just clinging on for the hope that they might get together someday.. Is this true love, or pure foolishness?
I've seen people getting a new bf/gf immediately after breaking up with their previous ones.
I've seen people get together with a new bf/gf, then when the ex-bf/gf comes calling again, he/she returns to the ex.
I've seen people first stating he/she likes A, but when it seems that it's rather hard to be with A, and when B comes calling, he/she jumps ship immediately and got together with B.
I've seen people get together just after a few weeks and even a few days of friendship. After A has confessed his/her liking for B, B will somehow think "Hmm, A is not bad..." and 'adapt' his/her thinking and like A. Previously, A is just one of the many options B thinks as a possible bf/gf. However, after the confession, B shuts down other options and decides to be with A.
So for cases 2, 3, 4 and 5, it's first acessing the practicalities of things before 'deciding' to like a person.
This is darn practical, but do you call that true love?
Or even do you call that truly liking a person?
Or it's just a marriage of convenience?
Is liking the person who likes you the easy way out if you do not know who to choose?
So do you choose someone you only 'half-like' because you feel that you're not good enough for the one you really like?
Practicalities Practicalities.
'I have a reason for doing that', they claimed.
But are the reasons reasonable enough? I wonder.
Even though I'm guilty too.
So, for now, do you keep a buffet-style on things?
Meaning you keep your options open, and pick the 'dish that somehow arrives on your plate'
Or do you do an a la carte?
Meaning your order what you want to eat.
The chef might not neccessarily want to cook that dish for you though.
The dilemma of feelings vs practicalities again.
难道我全做错?
能否重新来过?
爱能给我多少宽容?
I still engage in sentimental thoughts. There are certain things I have never been able to put off, although now it's more of a sub-conscious thing.
I won't 读书想着你, 听歌想着你, 大地和蓝天, 出现的全是你, but somehow it is impossible to feel totally normal when I see some people.
Circumstances do change, making it impossible to chase causes that are lost.
But sentiments don't.
Then with this emotional baggage inside me, it is possible to find someone I truly love?
If I were to go into a relationship, I know I would NEVER go and think about other girls. I will devote my ALL my attention and love to her. I would never contemplate a break-up unless really serious problem exist.
But somehow, I still have this sentimental side of me. Not that it will in any way affect my love to my girlfriend should I find one, but wouldn't this emotional baggage somehow makes the love less than 100%?
爱爱爱这东西
到底有什么了不起
la la la 我问自己
爱爱爱这东西
到底有什么了不起
bye bye bye
bye这个游戏
Are I alone in this thinking or is everyone like that?
I wonder.
爱是个什么东西?
我一直问我自己
爱有什么了不起?
那才是真理
有没有都活下去
爱是个什么东西?
我还在问我自己
爱有什么了不起?
我不能回答
我不能回答自己
lowtide blogged @
9:57 pm
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Pride is nurtured, not forced uponI felt immense pride when I see THREE flags of the stars and cresent being raised to the tune of the familiar 'Majulah Singapura'.
Saw it after following (first by watching tv-mobile then by just listening to the radio TV mobile) Jason Ho and Sharon Tan (local-born pair!) in a hard-fought victory over Miao Miao and Russell Lavale of Australia.
Against technically-superior opponents (great forehand smacks by the pair!) , the home crowd who went into rapturous cheers after every point the pair clinched, and the sending-off (huh? red card in table-tennis? well you learn something everyday haha) of their coach, Jason and Sharon did great to overcome the odds and clinched the bronze medal.
It just looks so good when the three parallel-placed Singapore flags are being raisen together.. especially when it's on foreign soil witnessed by the international media.
Well, although not all involved can be called as total-Singaporeans, all it matters to me is seeing the flag, or should I say flags, flying high on foreign soil.
Well done to our table-tennis mixed-doubles teams!! Clean sweep!! Sui Lah.
lowtide blogged @
12:41 am
Friday, March 24, 2006
How many times must I say..It seems like my last post has resulted in some 'lively discussion' on gender discriminations.
I appreciate people taking the time off their super-duper busy lives to read my blog.
I even appreciate more when people take time off their super-duper-and-even-more-super-duper-busy-after-reading-my-blog lives and painstakingly type in comments despite their heavy fingers and sense of fatigue or pure laziness taking over them.
Thanks.
BUT BUT BUTBefore anybody post anything else, please listen to my two cents'.
Firstly,
I'VE ALREADY SAID THE TAGBOARD IS FOR TAGGING SHORT MESSAGES!!!!For long messages, please kindly follow this easy steps:
1. Click on the 'comments' page under the post
2. Wait for the pop-up.
3. Type in your
well-thought, well-constructed, well-expressed and coherent comments in the typing box.
4. Click 'publish'. (not forgetting the word verification)
5. Wait patiently for any reply and continue your war thereafter.
I believe you guys here are 'minimumly' O'levels qualified. So construting a
well-thought, well-constructed, well-expressed and coherent paragraph shouldn't be THAT difficult.
That's something people perhaps do not know about me. Despite me having a view on almost everything on this world, I do appreciate people who disagrees with me.
But then, I only respect views of people who bother to take down my views point by point, and explain to me point by point why my idea is wrong.
Use logic and reason to convince me. Do not use tones (esp threatening, act-superior, angry ones), expressions (that 'you're plain stupid!' face) or position (age, rank etc).
Ways of rebutting me I absolutely hate:
1. Dismissing my idea without any reason
2. Starting your rebuttal with 'NO, ....' then talk one big round, but in the end still agreeing with me. (see third pt)
3. People who disagree just for the sake of disagreeing- meaning that they just want to disagree with you without actually having knowledge or solid views on the matter.
4. Using ' wa lao, u also can't do it what' to refute my criticism of someone who is supposedly 'professional'
5. Putting words into my mouth.
6. Interpreting what I say the way you want to interpret it and totally unwilling to accept what I meant, even after I explained. (most duh one I think)
7. Using your hand to wave away my reasoning (right in front of my face) despite having no words to rebutt them
8. Turning the argument into a personal attack e.g 'you're just stubborn', 'your ego la', 'you're just immature' etc
9. When running out of words to rebutt me, you just want the last word by ending the argument with 'YOU NEVER KNOW.' , claiming moral superiority and ending the argument as if you have won it. (since this is the most politically correct phrase you can ever find)
10. One-lined response. (just look at those idiots on the tagboard)
So, if you have any strong views on the matter, please kindly use the 'comments' page.
Then, you can type freely without having the constraints by the no. of words allowed.
Argue? sure. Discussion? Welcome!!
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY,
SO THAT YOU WOULDN'T FLOOD MY FUCKING TAGBOARD!!!!As a former debater and kid who got wronged by many self-professed mature adults (parents and teachers), I really dislike people who can't argue well.
Unreasonable people I mean.
Anyone wanna argue, please dissect the opponent's flaws point by point, and refute them logically and reasonably.
Emotional arguments are certainly not welcomed.
Thanks. (I'm trying to be polite here)
"Wa lao, why you so geh kao one?"
Well, you learn something everyday, don't you?
Cheers.
lowtide blogged @
1:36 am
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Who says a guy can't provide good service?I'm just just so so so so so so so so sick of visiting office by office, places by places, for interviews and interviews.
I'm sick of waiting for agencies to call me.. I just want to be more pro-active in find the jobs.
I know jobs will not just fall from the sky if I just sit at home everyday.
Went to the town council's jobseekers' corner to look for a temp job just now.
Huh? Town council?? WTF?
Yes, to avoid the constant nagging by my father and to give myself another avenue of finding a temp job, I went to the town council to try and find a job.
Well, as most have guessed it, most jobs are low-end ones. However, there is a two-week temp admin job at the CDC that might best suit me for the time being.
Most of the admin jobs available want females, or people with experience, which the bills I fit neither.
Why the **** do they want ONLY females in admin duties?? I don't understand.They can type faster?
I'm don't think there's a link between typing speed and gender. Any statistical studies to prove that?
They are more diligent?
Perhaps perhaps. Stereotypes at work here. Can they work as fast when required? Or are both sexes just equally capable in this aspect?
They are more street-smart?
Looking at some of the friends I know (no offence here), it's certainly not the case.
It's just a social stereotype. Girls make better admin personnels. They are more meticulous about things and paperwork will suit them perfectly. They are also better in communication skills. They 'decorate' the office with their pretty faces and 'bubbly' personalities.
Ah, I think the last point is the main reason.
Tiko bosses. Tiko managers. Tiko directors.
TIKOS.
This guy, shawn, at the jobseekers' counter, provide the perfect example that guys can be equally good at admin/customer service jobs as well.
His smile and warm service brought a smile to my face, and I think he provides great service, certainly better than some of the lowly-educated but highly-make-up-ed females faces.
Why are girls preferred in these kinds of jobs?
I just don't understand.
lowtide blogged @
2:54 pm
Monday, March 20, 2006
Just thoughtsWell, some random thoughts just pop out and i thot i would type it down.
Just watched the Star Idol final last night. What a horrible show!
Firstly, I thought that the programmers planned it horribly. The plot of the scenes were not linked, nobody really knew what the story was about.
And the two supposedly star idol-elects really can't act!!!
Stiff facial expressions, incoherent speaking and unnatural acting.
How the hell did they get so far??
It's no wonder the story felt so 'substanceless'. They couldn't carry the characters required of them, or bring the audience into the emotions of the characters. In stark contrast to experienced actors like ann kok and felicia chin, their poor acting stood out even more. I just can feel they they are 'acting', as opposed to the real actors who made me feel I'm seeing a story unfold in front of me.
And one major downfall, for them and all the previous contestants, were their command of mandarin, or the lack of it.
Since like in sec sch, I noticed how horribly our youngsters nowadays in speaking the language. Many of us, including me, profess to use the language in our daily conversations.
But why spoken horribly when we have to use it formally?
Being in Taiwan then exposed me to the fact that how unfluently I speak proper mandarin. Think I have to practise it through my daily conversations.. I have to cut down on relying on English whenever I stumble upon a Chinese word to express my thoughts. I want to speak fluently in both languages!!
This and many other factors brought me to think of the importance of the Chinese language. Guess I haven't been touch the language for a while! Since I'll be in the Arts fac, I'll definitely take some Chinese modules.. But not the Chinese literature-ic modules though, I have enough of it in sec 3 and sec 4! I probably will be taking some commercial chinese modules or something more modern.. miss speaking mandarin in class!
Yah, and now i look forward to see the superband show. I love people making 'live' music, and the contestants look promising I must say. I've no doubt they'll play great music, but I'm not so sure about the singing... usually in one band u can see the guitarists, keyboardist and drummer playing all so well, but the singing will bring everything down. And Chinese rock bands in Singapore are not common. Or should I say mostly are not purely chinese bands, but english-speaking people trying to sing chinese songs.
Would the singing be good? Let' s see.
And I'm sick of look for a job. Went for countless interviews and filled in countless forms. I'm so sick of them! Hopefully the agents will call.. real soon.
These are the jobs that i rejected:
1. Organisation raising funds for charity.
--They earn quite a lot per hr, and they take commission from sale of things like keychains, toys etc to members of public. Meaning: They take a certain percentage off public donations, and make it their income! If the your average fund-raiser gets some commission, imagine the team leader, imagine your boss, imagine the company! It's no wonder sometimes only a few cents out of a dollar from our donations go to the needy we intend to help. Makes me more sceptical about donating next time.
2. Factory work. Pack Cds. 12hr per day.. $58! I'm an A'Levels Certificate holder u know? less than $5 per hr! Crap!
3. MLMs (two) - Nuff said. FUCK OFF.
Maybe this is the price you pay for freedom. New things get in to trouble you.
and i'm confused. What do I want? Will the future really bring what I hope it will bring? What do I have to do to solve the $ problems in uni? WHO? Why does my mind keep flying around? Why am I so sentimental about certain things? And am I fickle?
These are the things I need to sort out along the way.. Hope He shows me the plan soon enough and I just will follow it..
just some thoughts.
lowtide blogged @
8:30 am
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
ORD LOH!!!!!!!
A sense of ecstasy filled me as I saw that pink card I handed to a sergeant at BMTC on 16th January 2004.
I've been missing u since 16/01/04...
ORD LOH!!!
Immediately I wanted to cry, but all the tears went inside my heart. Oh how I missed this card.
It is not as if this card holds any special powers, really.
But to me, as it is to many of my peers, it is THE symbol of freedom, THE mark of the end of my full-time national serviceman status, and THE one thing that represents the re-birth of me.
Finally, I have a chance to lead a new life now.
It's MY life, and nobody will order me what to do, when to eat, what to eat, when to sleep, what to wear.
Finally, I have the will to decide my own actions.
Freedom feels really sweet.
I went up to my bunk to clear my stores, then proceeded out of camp, to wait for the taxi I'm sharing with junwei.
As I sat outside camp with my duffel bag and stores, I took out my pink IC.
Looking deeply unto it and stroking the card with my fingers, deep thoughts began running through my mind.
Memories kept flooding back. Tears began to brim at my eyes. It was a familiar feeling.
Flashback to 5.30am, 16th January 2004.
With that huge tinge of sadness in my head, I left my house, carrying the stuff I intended for enlistment and made my way out. Walking under the dark sky in the wee hours of the morning, I reached the void deck of a familiar place.
She was there.
A familiar uniform. A familiar girl. A familiar posture of carrying her bag on one side.
We sat down to talk.
I was useless.
I cried.
She cried too.
I sent her off to take a taxi to school, and I took a taxi to junwei's house and we enlisted together.
It was a totally strange environment. The sun was hot, I was tired as I did not have a good sleep the previous night. I didn't know what I was doing. I just remembered doing whatever those people in white polo tees told me to do. I just felt damn tired and I just wanted to sleep.
But I couldn't.
I was ordered around, to do all the paperwork, the setting of my new cupboard, the setting of my strange brand-new equipment etc.. I felt so tired I just didn't know what I was doing.
There once this piece of paper about our particulars we had to check. One row read,
"ORD: 150506". OMG.. is this day ever gonna come??
But I knew what was I thinking.
All I could think of then is her.
I just felt so sad that at the point of time, EVERYTHING was taken away from me. My dignity, my computer, my family, my friends, my life, and her.
I had no choice. I was there. I had to obey everything these total strangers told me. I had no dignity. I just felt like a dog being ordered around. I got scolded for every small thing that detered from confirmity.I just felt like running away.. but I couldn't.
I just knew I missed her.
Tears brimmed at my eyes.
That kind of helplessness still bugs me to this day.
I still irk at the thought of that day, or even the 10weeks that followed it.
Thanks to the NS reduction of two months, the day finally arrived.
Fast forward to 15th March 2006.
The tears are brimming inside my eyes, but the feeling was the exact opposite.
I FINALLY REGAINED MY FREEDOM!!!!!
Maybe you may think that I'm exagerrating, or even call me immature to begin with.
But people who never went through NS will never understand this.
The idea of freedom is really THAT precious to me.
And finally it's here.
Looking back, it has been really a long long journey.. I will remember every single shit I went through.. and I thank you people for all the memories.
Thank you scout platoon, for going through all the shit with me.
ISPC POP!!!!
before ROC
at ROC
AIT, ISPC, NDP, Brunei, Alert Red, Ops B, OPFOR 1GDS, all the outfields, and ATEC.. I will always remember them in my heart.
And thank you guys, for celebrating my 20th birthday for me.
naked warriors
really a BIG thank you
We might have some quarrels along the way, but I love you guys.
Thank you very much.
Got time we meet up k?
a new life awaits...
ORD LOH!!!
lowtide blogged @
11:32 pm
Monday, March 13, 2006
有感而发空无一人这片沙滩
风吹过来冷冷海岸
我轻轻抖落鞋里的沙
看着我的脚印
oh一个人一步步
好寂寞
忽然一场阵雨
世界缩为屋檐
你熟悉的侧脸
回头就在眼前
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口
但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心好好欣赏你的美
幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪
不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
当时我没话可说
两眼无神脑空白
像埋伏在街头的某种气息
无意间经过把往日笑与泪勾起
并不是真的
路过而已
也不是真的
不会想你
全部不是真的
是骗自己
每个人心中都有架钢琴
尘封在回忆
任凭我只是你的插曲
时间偶尔提起
钢琴偶尔哭泣
那些零乱片段
我以为我早想清楚
不由自主恍恍惚惚
又走回头路
再看一眼有过的幸福
看海有些绿天有些蓝
那段爱情有些遗憾
像不知不觉游向海天
到最深的地方
才发现你早已经
放弃我
春天是她最爱的季节
当微风随意吹乱他的头发
她并不在意身边世界的吵杂
只想著自己生命中的变化
她是个十X岁的小女孩
她不知道自己有多可爱
她眼中只有相信和依赖
好象未来就该那么好
让我的心也跟着摇摆
我是个十X岁的小男孩
我不怕面对世界变多快
做过自己觉得好傻的事
那是多么纯真的年代
那是多么纯洁的相爱
一起拍的照片
一起扮的鬼脸
永远都没有句点
虽然说了再见
依然怀念
不管过了好几个光年
是作梦吧
我不知不觉回到熟悉的地方
是想念
才会让我必上眼睛就看到你在那里啊
你的声音在好远好远的地方
我说不出话
是怎黱了
感觉不见了
怎黱了
你怎黱消失了
找留不到你脑海里
只下半首歌的旋律
后来的你好吗
有比较快乐吗
我应该高兴吧
却又说不上话
how are you my friend?
就算我们不再见面
还是依然记得你曾在我身边
从来不曾改变
我听着海浪温柔的呼吸
我看着云朵飘来飘去
有什么方法
让自己
真的忘记
only blue only blue 爱让人好忧郁我的心我的心蓝蓝的
感觉好像昨天
其实过了X年
真没有想到
心中还是在挂念
我和你面对面
感觉就像从前
我不再否认这直觉
说好决定要努力忘了啊
为何还有泪停在脸角?
躲在我的屋檐下面oh
睡在我的被单里面oh
听着细雨滴滴答答
滴滴答答
终于明白你已变成回忆
没有言语能够说明当别人问起
谱了一段旋律没有句点
也无法再继续
good-bye my love
我都明白
虽然无奈
还是要看得开
good-bye my love
短暂的爱
或许十年又一天
你才会珍惜这一段爱
不知我怎么变了
不知她怎么变了
我慢慢知道什么叫做忘记
是一种成长也好
是一种悲哀也好不管我多想留住回忆
它依然随着时光淡去
my love
不再是十X岁的我和你
最好还是想念别再相见
我将永远记得那一段情
就算有一天我们变老
想起彼此还有着微笑
我真的想找一条船
能远远离开这片沙滩
每次又回到同样海边
还是会对你想念
And may be our hearts will find a way?
Only heaven knows
想念你有点blue
没有人能像你
留给我的回忆
有点blue
only blue...
lowtide blogged @
8:19 am
Friday, March 10, 2006
Rayner's 21st birthday party!Rayner's birthday was on 5th March, but he held his celebrations on the 4th.
It was also the day which I made my debut for the
Marists' Mclucky Team, and with me in the side, guess what???
We lost
7-2.
Nuff said.
Playing against the SAFTI MI Clerks (OCC --> OOC hahahahahahahaha), we had the most 'chapalang' team you could have thought of. I don't wanna name names, but there are certain people who just didn't suit their positions.
Well though this is a heavy loss, it made me think through a lot about field football and formations, and how field football at our level should be played. I care a lot about tactics, and this match sort of opened up my mind as I begin to think more vigorously on tactics and what are the types of players suited for each position.
I now look forward to our next match, even if we get thrashed again, we could put those tactics into practice and I can see for myself how tactics can change games.. Few people might agree with me on this, but I still believe formations at our level can win/lose you games... I wanna learn more about them and hopefully apply it to our 4d team (if we ever can send out a team to play, of course)
Yes, enough about football.
Rayner's birthday party!!
08/02 + btin
Well, it was another typical 21st birthday party you'll see, with each group of friends/camp mates/relatives/colleagues mingling among themselves, and the birthday boy/girl in question have to keep running around entertaining the different group of people.. Something like a 'mamasan for the night' I guess hahaha
poor rayner getting 'raped' by little girls
Fortunately I knew almost all the marists/GIs in question, as most of them are from tjc, and I've either played soccer, dota with them and most of them are either in LEO Club or quite sociable in school.
I must say I'm very impressed by his mum. One can just feel her pride and love for Rayner as she planned everything on this chalet, from the lodging to food to the people attending. Apparently she asked all their relatives, and even the relatives of her colleagues to come! From all these I can really see her effort in making her son's 21st birthday party a successful one.
Treasure your mum Rayner!
yup 08/02 (ok the usual gang) was there, plus felicia! Long time no see, dude.
aiyo she looks so auntie in her flowery top
And bored, we do what we do best.. zai MAHJONG!!!
felicia's boyfriend opp xiong's girlfriend
And btin's tiles was so.. nice!!
btin's opposite was the zhuang.. Calculate the 'tais' urself.
Poor souls who have nothing to do
Despite already waiting to win for 'ban se', she didn't win.. rrgh what a waste!
It was near 12am then it was the cake cutting!!
chao marists =P
And Rayner's mum got kinda, erm, crazy and asked girls to kiss him!! simi sai?
wa lao weichern not in sg u cheng ji??
and got yujia also.. but no photo! shall post it up when i have them.
Rayner's now the official top no-of-kissers in 08/02, overtaking me and xiong in just one night!! damn. =P
Then the guys stayed for a round of overnight mahjong, and I reported back TO CAMP the next morning!
What a way to end the party rrgh.
Next up on 11th and 12th March.. FASS Tea Party + Yvonne's + Andy's + Maggie's Party!
It's gonna be fun man =)
FIVE more days.
lowtide blogged @
1:18 am
Monday, March 06, 2006
WOOHOO!!I had 3 tasks to complete:
1.Complete my clearance
2. Endorse my MC
3. Submit the claims for my dental
THAT sense of freedom entered my mind as I walked through the gate opened by yuhong.
(HAHAHAHA STILL GOT RP DUTY HAHAHAHHAHA)
I can remember my sense of excitement when I saw Mr Voon walking into camp on Sunday. It has been the first time I'm excited to see an army personnel, and not to mention a bloody CSM.
Immediately I dashed to my bunk to take my clearance form, and ran to support company with my SOC pace.
"Encek, eh, help me sign leh"
"Why should I sign for you?"
"Because that previous guy la, don't want to sign"
Yes and I don't uderstand why koh puay seng doesn't want to sign. Bloody lazy guy.. it's not as if he will die for signing a stupid form!
"How many more days?"
"TEN MORE DAYS AH!!"
Yes la. I'm surprised by the ease which he signed, but well, I think this is the first, the last and the only conversation I will have with him. Thanks Mr Voon!
I FINALLY GOT ALL THOSE BLOODY SIGNATURES FOR MY CLEARANCE!!!
I reached camp on this sunday after Rayner's birthday party.. Completely shagged out after the whole day, with soccer in the morning and overnight mahjong in the evening.
And I thought it is a sunday I could sleep the whole day.. Hell I was wrong!!
Some big shots ( s3, s4,RSM, OCs and CSMs) are coming back camp on a bloody SUNDAY 4PM to check the unit's equipment's safety!!
'Wa they so hardworking ah?' u may ask.
yah as if. They just putting up a show for monday's external check on safety in the unit.
Then I got so many calls and people coming into the office to get keys from me.. damn bloody pissed.
OEI WAH AI KUN LEH!!!!
So i just seh-seh listen to calls, get keys for others, and walked around the unit helping out on the checks.
After the last parade I just concussed.
Next morning, saw daniel sim near our bunk, and passed the claims to him.
Task 3 fulfilled.
Then went to the medical centre, and endorsed my MC.
Task 2 completed.
ORD LOH!!
9 more days.
lowtide blogged @
7:32 pm
Thursday, March 02, 2006
One more signature = ORDWent to the dental FFI (Fit for instrution) at Kranji Camp this morning.
Thanks desmond for driving me there! It really saved me a lot of time waking up and travelling there. And to think I slept at 4am last nite! rrgh vv strange sleeping hours these days.
Yah before u ORD, u are supposed to get your 'clearance' done, with the various departments signing on your clearance form before u are finally 'cleared' to leave the camp for ORD.
The dental FFI was rather stupid. Haha you travel all the way to Kranji Camp (desmond's camp) and all the dentist do is to count the no. of teeth you've got left and tada! You're cleared.
"Just remember to go for your follow-up at Alexandra Hospital to remove your stitches ah."
"Ok."
After the dental officer's signature on the form (all I needed anyway, those bloody signatures), I was left with only one signature! The CSM's. MR VOON's.
Sunday's COS duty is perhaps a blessing in disguise as possibly I could get his signature on Monday morning. And also to endorse my MC for this week! Although sian-ed by it, hopefully that will be the last thing I owe the army. Clear and ORD loh! I have to be positive.. endure endure.. last 13 days!
(For S2's signature I can sign for him anyway, so that's not counted! haha)
And met desmond (ong) to get MEI MEI'S POSTER!!
Really thanks to desmond for queuing to help me get the poster. Really appreciate it. I will now hang it on my room's wall! Right beside David and Kelly.. My room is turning into some cd-shop wall now hahaha
Then went to the career fare at suntec with yuhong.
I wanted to see if there are any temp jobs on offer as I need to work from mid-march to mid-july.
I must say this fare is a
stupid one! It is mainly made up with educational institutes (80%) trying to promote either further education or post-graduate education. Got all the stupid universities coming out, local or otherwise. Never heard of those schools and will never join them!
Is it a career fair or education fair?? I feel so be-wildered by it.
Nonetheless, I submitted an application form looking for a temp job and I hope it helps. But I don't think so though, since there are so many people applying for so few jobs on display.
jobstreet.com, agents, newspapers.
Gotta look for job REALLY REALLY SOON!!! Now then realise I need the $$ so much.
Scholarships, Financial Aids, Jobs.. are all the things I need to settle soon.. My family are not giving me any money for my university studies at all and I have to settle all by myself.. Lucky still got my mum's insurance money, which I can touch only after I turn 21.
Headache headache. Hope you people will appreciate how lucky you are to have parents who can afford to pay for your tuition fees /living allowances.. I don't have!!
And bought a new bag at bugis.. haha wanted to get a new sling bag since that stupid black bag I bought from Ximen Ding has its zip spoilt.. Now I'm so happy to get one!
And got a surprise.. I saw Maggie!! (not maggie goh la duh)
Hey 4dees, she invited us to go her birthday party on 12th March (sun) at a Pasir Ris chalet, near Pasir Ris beach one.. But she don't have our contacts. I will post this on our YAHOO GRP soon.
What a boring entry. Yawnz.
13 more days.
lowtide blogged @
9:49 pm
