Monday, June 27, 2011
Such is life, of imperfections
On one hand, I can easily fall into the slump realising that I've been down almost my whole life, and when things just started to look like it's going up, something just has to pull me back down again. And it's not the matter of a temporary hurdle or what, it's going to be rather long-term and permanent.
On the other hand, if taking this shit as a 'given', I should be grateful that I seem to have the earning capability to take this shit. If I was just the average joe, I wouldn't be able to stand tall and shoulder this for my family.
Should I feel lots of unfair and unjust because I see so many people around me doing way better than me despite not being better (yes I'm proud when I need to, and humble otherwise) , or should I feel superbly proud of myself that no matter what shit life throws at me, I always have the capability to deal with it?
Of course the grass is always greener on the other side. I'm sure some people will gladly take my place as they see what I get but don't understand the agony I'm going through, and I'm sure many times I will gladly take their places as I see the significantly less burden but don't understand this thingy about low self-esteem.
I'm trying very hard to think of the glass as half full, and I've struggled for quite some time already. The hurt still stings.
Then of course you look across and see this guy with high ability cum low burden.. then you'll really feel like shit.
Such is life, of imperfections.
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11:12 pm
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Me vs the others
It's either that I am too short-fused over longer term issues while others are calm and collected; or I care too much while others just want to live in their own perfect lifestyles and expect me to do all the adjustments.
What's new.
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10:14 pm
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Worry
Sometimes I wish that instead of worrying and thinking over the very real and practical stuff with massive implications, I can anchor my whole emotional well-being on trivial things like desiring new clothes and new shoes, emoing over an extra inch of fats on my tummy, panicking over that scratch on my skin, missing some food, and freting over where to go for my next holiday.
No offence, but seeing people getting all so emotional over such stuff really makes me snide/puke/roll eyes/jealous/cannot understand/ (insert choice negative word)
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9:01 pm
Wednesday, June 08, 2011
鱼与熊掌，岂可兼得？
I look matured beyond my years because I get shit beyond my years.
虽然我完全不赞成这种做法，现在我终于能明白为什么有些人会“抛亲保妻”。
在新加坡这种高消费，高期许的社会，上养父母，下育妻儿，的确不容易啊。
在孝道与身为人夫人父的职责间做衡量，除非你家财万贯，鱼与熊掌，岂可兼得？
既不可兼得，其中必有取舍。
不幸中的大幸，是天赐我这个脑袋，和我个人不间断的努力。知己能感同身受，我也充满感激。
四处往往，在人比人当中的确有许多的不甘。
但要尽其孝道，再多的不满也只得把它吞下。
只希望上天能看到我这一份用心，让我们生活能越走越顺，越过越好。
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