Thursday, October 11, 2007
Sian
Usually, when I don't get into the flow of things in lectures, I shut down, go through motion, and simply copy down things the lecturer says without understanding them.
Then, I'll go back to my room, mind clear, stare at the notes, and finally understand what the writing is all about.
But for these two grand days, I've been staring at the EC3303 notes, and even when I try to give my most intense glare, I cannot comprehend what's written on the paper, and the thought of sleeping just enter my mind. Thus, I go to sleep.
These two days of break hasn't been productive at all, it's just staring and staring at the EC3303 notes.
I think my limit of my intelligence has been reached. I'm stuck at the level 3000 modules.
Micro 2 is really bad, and EC3303 is not any better. Yes, it's open book, but something tells me the greek alphabets on the papers make no sense except being fillers on the otherwise blank pieces of paper.
Reuben kept repeating about our date at the start of the next academic year, but I seriously doubt I can even make it this time round.
I need to do well to give my family a better life. I need to do well to get the scholarship again. I need to do well because I need the money. I need to do well because I don't come from some well-off family whereby you can afford to slack your life through and live comfortably. I need to do well because I'm using the money my mum exchanged through her life.
It's not for pride, it's not to make myself look good.
I just need to do well, I simply have to.
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